I feel like I am getting weaker.
But at the same time I feel OK.
And I feel so buried underneath everything.
I don't want to regret my decision, and everyday I start doubting myself that I have done the wrong thing. I don't know where my priorities lie.
I am fighting so hard, but it is fighting back. With every twinge it hits me and disarms me.
It will get to a point where I can't ignore it any longer.
But I just need to hold on until I am ready to get it with everything I have got.
I'm still so close but so far.