Wednesday, 18 May 2011

Time passes. Even when it seems impossible...

Time passes, and things change.

Sometimes, they are small changes that you don't even see untill you look back. Sometimes, they are big changes that you know will effect you, even if you don't anticipate the domino effect it will start.

Sometimes, they will stick with you for the rest of your life, and you will never be able to imagine what it would be like without it.

Thats what it was like when I was diagnosed with Crohn's Disease three years ago. It comes into my mind so often that I find it difficult to comprehend the times it wasn't there. There are so many things you have to think about, and everyday I take the medication that keeps me alive.

When things change you have to learn to adapt to them, at first I imagined a little monster inside me which made me hurt. He had big sharp teeth and claws and if I did something he didn't like he would hurt me. My medication would make him weak and me stronger, and that is how I would keep going.

Now I don't think of him very often, a while ago I thought of it like this: Three years ago I was supposed to die. This disease had caught hold of me and wasn't letting me eat. It was going to keep hold untill I got too weak to keep going, and eventually starve me to death. Then modern medicine came along. They said, we cannot cure it, but we can keep it away. So now I'm fighting this battle everyday. Modern medicine is keeping me alive. If I stop taking my medication I will get worse again. Keep taking it, and I can live a relitively normal life.

Sometimes, I don't know if this is a blessing or a curse.

"Death is peaceful: easy. Life is harder"

But there are the things in life that keep you going, that get you through your bad times. Your freinds, your family, this amazing world we live in!
Music! Music can make you feel so alive! 

I know I haven't expalined what Crohn's is yet, I will explain this at a later time. 


  1. Omg this is really good. The other day I was thinking about that quote "death is peaceful, easy, life is harder." It's so true. Twilight actually has some good quotes lol x

  2. Yeah it does! I thought of the one for the title and then as I was writing it I thought of the other one! Gave it a slight twilight theme :S lol x